the truth revealed

i've fallen out of touch with the world that i know.

i used to notice my passion, my care, my hope about the world. over the past year i have been myred in frustration, pain and intense fear.

it might sound odd for people who know me to hear this....or maybe not....

maybe i am just discovering where this frustration has been hiding and, how it has manifested in various forms in my life.

so this one woman's name keeps coming to mind. and it's not because she was a powerful leader during the time of intense oppression of African and African-American people in our country, and it's not because she is remembered for her bravery and her battle for justice. it is, in fact, her name that has been on my mind, and in my mouth.

for over four years now.

i work for an organziation named after this very woman. and her last name, though not her birth name, is a word that vibrates in me like the bell in the church tower.

Truth.

i wanted my first born child to hold Truth as a middle name.

but...this entry is not about a name. it is about the beginning of a journey toward that very thing; truth.

in the next entries, i will begin a stream of consciousness confession of my life's truths.

here is what i ask of readers:

before you judge remember that we are human and that with each step, my ultimate goal is to walk the walk. in other words, i want to know that my humanity is left to be judged by the divine spirit and not other humans who are in the same inane struggle for divinity (i will address my feelings about this loaded sentence later).

also, if you read something that you feel is too personal, i ask you to think about the word courage and how it relates to you and your life. then ask yourself, "what am I afraid to say?"

finally, i ask that if you comment (which i hope you do), i will honor your comments as part of your journey and reflections. it is with joy that i share these stories, reflections with you in my best effort to know myself and to know what loving people really means.

so here i go.